There comes a time in your life when you just feel like quitting. The feeling of getting exhausted with everything that has to be done but there’s just so little time.  Parang nakikipaghabulan ka sa oras and all you just want to do is to get away from all the stress you’re going through.

My mind tells me to go on. To do this and do that, to finish this and start the other right after. My mind tells me I can do it, but sometimes my body just can’t. You know you are under stress when you lie on bed and try to get some sleep, and all of a sudden you cry. Maybe it’s a combination of stress and tiredness, or maybe my mind is under complete anxiety. Sometimes I think that it’s all in my mind, that I just think too much putting more pressure and stress on myself.

Right now, I am exhausted and worried for my future. Sometimes I ask myself, “Ano ba tong pinaggagagawa ko sa sarili ko.”

From now on, I will regain myself. I have always been optimistic (but sometimes you just fail) and I know that this is just a part of the challenge. I know that one day, every hardships and tears spent will pay off. I know that God is always beside me to give me strength. It’s hard to be away from family on times like these, but it’s good to have friends around. And thanks to cyber world, people I love are just a message away.

Haay. Few more steps and you’re done, B! I can do this!

*Photos from Tumblr*

Feeling down yet hopeful,

B.

Have you ever felt like you’re not on your best foot whenever you think you’re on your worst clothes? I do. That’s why whenever my friends and I have the chance to porma and magmaganda, we make it a point that we do. Dressing-up is one of my favorite things to do! :)

TOP-SECRET-NO-MORE:

You can always look good in the cheapest clothes you can find in your wardrobe.

Who said looking best comes hand in hand with branded clothes? I don’t think so. 

Whenever I enter a clothes shop, I go straight to the ‘SALE’ rack. Always. I ignore all the newly-arrived and what’s hot products, and go scan the clearance sale stand. And if in any case I find something I like on one of the mannequins, I wait until it comes up on sale. :D

Being a student and a casual employee, money is a tight thing for me. Saving is my priority. But looking good comes next. *wink*

My shopping budget for clothes ranges only from $5 to $10. $15 is a debate for me – bibilhin o hindi?!, and it would take me ages to come up with a non-guilt decision.  I also go to thrift shops, especially when I was in Manila. I feel challenged whenever I go there, and finding good stuff makes me really proud. Lucky, Aussies have thrift shops as well. Again, same budget applies. :)

Hand-me-downs are also great! My cousin clears her closet from time to time and before she brings her unwanted clothes to thrift shops, she gives it to us (her sisters and I). It’s good because it’s free, clean, damage-free and branded.

Dress up. Sport your confidence. Feel gorgeous and beautiful.

Nasa nagdadala lang yan. JJJJ

Feeling model, 

B. :)

I will never understand why some people find pleasure in taking someone else’s life. What’s the point? What’s so satisfying about that? Why not kill yourself instead?

I got curious with this video going viral on Facebook. It’s worth the watch. I admire the people behind it putting all the effort and dedication to make this happen. Awareness is really the first step to getting something done. I can’t wait for Kony’s arrest by the end of this year!

Share this video and make a difference not only for yourself but for the future generation as well. :D

In six days time I’m turning 24. I can’t believe it. Yuck. I feel old and young at the same time.

When I was still in high school, I imagined myself to have a stable career at the age of 24. Yes, I even thought of myself to settle down and get married at 25. But HAHA, dreams really are dreams. It’s just not possible. :D

Who would have thought that at one point in my life, I’d be daring enough to leave my family and live in a totally different country? Who would have thought that I’d be spending my 24^th birthday in the Land Down Under? It still is so surreal for me.

I believe that I am BLESSED.

I may have lost my father at a young age but I still have three lovely women in my life – my mom and my sisters.

I have my family here who has been very supportive to me since day one.

I have a best friend to whom I can confess almost everything.

I have friends both back home and here in Oz who keep me company during my down times.

I have tons of relatives who give me all out support in everything that I do.

I can’t write into words how blessed I am even in such small things. I may have lots of complains sometimes, but I make it sure that I look at the big picture and thank God for literally EVERYTHING.

The almost 24 years of my existence has been full of joy, struggles, weeping, boredom and more. It is about Bianca living her life to the fullest. I thank God for every single day He has given me to take pleasure in the so called ‘life’. I trust and have faith in Him that everything will be alright.

My 24^th birthday will surely be different from what I used to have. This time with the absence of my family, friends and loved ones. But whatever happens, I’ll make the most out of it. :)

I'm not sure if this entry made any sense. Haha. This is me blabbing my thoughts out. :D 

xo,

Sleepy B

Each one of us is blessed with a mom, and all of us have our own reasons and insights of how lucky we are to have the PERFECT mother of all time. Today I’m sharing with you a story of the greatest mom ever made. :)

My mom is best described as COOL, CAREFREE and FUN TO BE WITH. I’m sure those who know her would probably agree with me. I’m sure there are more adjectives to portray her but these three are on the A-list.

She’s someone who lightens up the mood in a crowd. I remember her telling me how friends would warmly welcome her every time she enters the room. Don’t get her wrong, she’s not bragging about it, she’s just amazed at how great her impact is in a group without putting any effort.

When I wake up in the morning, I’d see her sweaty with her hair all greasy and yucky. That’s because she danced her heart out in our garage while waving hello to the passers-by. That’s her exercise and believe it or not she has lost weight just by doing it every day. She once taught me her “steps”. “Igiling at ikembot mo yung balakang mo, ganito oh” and then I’d laugh while trying to copy her.

She’s a great dancer. She never fails to perform in parties no matter how big the crowd is. She dances Ballroom, Cha Cha, LA Walk, Belly Dancing and sometimes Hip Hop (she copies how artistas dance on ASAP). 

She’s an incredible cook. She’s well-known for her Ginataang Kuhol, Kare-Kare, Chicken Feet, Crispy Pata, Seafood Pasta, Ginataang Kaldereta (gosh, I’m salivating just by writing these) and a lot more. I miss her dishes!

She doesn’t know how to use the computer like the way she did before. She used to write long emails to her friends. I don’t know what happened, but now she’s catching up with technology. We were once having a video call on Skype when something went wrong with the connection that disabled the call. I was shocked when a message popped out in the chat box. When I asked her how she knew how to chat me, she said, “Eh sabi dito ‘Type a message to Jessica Bianca Reyes’ eh.” Hahaha. She’s funny!

She now also knows how to play Angry Birds and Fruit Ninja. It’s her new addiction! She even knows how to charge the iPad herself. Haha!

I admire her braveness and overflowing courage especially when Paps died. I only saw her broke down once and that was it! She stood strong not only for herself but also for us, her children. She knew that she NEEDED to be tough for the family. My sisters and I were lucky that we didn’t have to look after her following my father’s death. She’s simply our source of strength.

I will never forget the look on her face on the day I left the Philippines. She was teary and sad. She gave me a hug and told me to be strong. I can’t wait to see her cry again, but this time with joy, on the day of my arrival.

I love our random chats especially during mealtimes, talking about work, friends and future. She’s so easy to talk to even if sometimes she keeps on telling stories over and over again (especially her childhood and ligawan days with Paps). Haha.

Her past time is to watch Willie’s show on the television while munching on peanuts, chips or anything. After a while you’d see her snoring in the couch with her mouth wide open. Sometimes she’s still holding the remote or the food she’s eating while she sleeps, and when she wakes up she scolds us. Talk about naalimpungatan!

Whenever she sees me trying out clothes and ask her opinion about it, she’d always say, “Ang arte mo no?!” and then I’d say, “Mana lang sayo!” Haha. If there’s a party to attend to, she would always have her clothes prepared a week earlier, dapat matching ang bag sa shoes pati narin ang accessories. She would do a catwalk in front of us and she’d stare at herself in the mirror at all angles!

She’s cool. Our boyfriends have always been comfortable with our mom. She joins us whenever we have drinking sessions at home, tatagay pa yan at sasali sa kuwentuhan. She makes it a point that she served good food especially to her daughters’ special someones. Dapat uuwi silang busog. :)

She’s even way cooler because she sometimes goes home at 5 in the morning. Haha. This is when she and her sisters enjoy the night anywhere their feet take them. One time I was about to leave for work at 6 AM and she just got home still lively and on-the-go.

Villavicencio sisters doing jump shots! :)

We’ve done everything to make her stop smoking. My Ate once hid all her cigarettes but my mom would just buy a new packet. She herself has also made so many promises to stop smoking but I think it’s just too difficult for her. Oh well. Just promise me you’ll live 60 more years so we can fulfill our plans for you. Okay? :)

Her jump shots!

Seriously, there’s a lot to say! To cut it short, she’s truly a BLESSING to me, my sisters and to everyone who knows her. There is nothing more I want for her but to be happy, healthy, contented and to travel the world.

I know how proud she is of me and my sisters, and I know that all she ever wanted for us is to be successful in life. We are doing our best, Mommy! We are taking things a step at a time to living a wonderful life with you in it. One day you’ll see our family traveling the world with love and happiness shown in every photo we take.

I miss you, Baby Girl! Konti nalang at makakauwi rin ako. For the meantime practice your computer and iPad skills para we can keep in touch! Papa’s watching over us kaya there’s nothing to worry. Keep on helping and making others happy. Keep being an inspiration to the people around you and for sure you will be blessed. I love you and my sisters and I are always here for you! MWAH! :)

Love, 

Biancs